For the last couple of years I have been growing out my hair so that I could chop it off and give it to locks of love. Tuesday evening at 10:30 PM, I finally did it. I chopped off all but a small portion of my hair, not bothering to notify anyone prior to my actions. I didn't stop there, though. No, I people might be shocked at the hair but I figured I could go one step better. I shaved off my beard as well. Now, I am a short haired man with no beard. Before, I was a long haired man with a full beard. Going to classes and work the next day provided many good reactions.
The first thing I got with many people was a double take. People that I have known for quite some time taking a good 5 seconds to recognize me as I stare right at them. Watching their facial expression as it goes from confusion to shock (and sometimes horror) upon recognition. One of the best was when Chip walked into the room. He did the double take and then let out a slight yelp as he realized who I was. Another good one was when I walked into choir and Crissy, after her 2x take, told me that I now look 1000x hotter. I guess that means I must have been REALLY ugly before...lol. However, the best one, the one that none of the others even come close to topping, was from my boss at Client Services, Patrinah. I walk into work with food like I usually do on Wensday. After about a minute, Patrinah storms out of her office with a scowl on her face. She as she looks at me her facial expression changes from a scowl to confusion. She blinks her eyes and shakes her head as if she's wondering what she is seeing is real. "Why?" is all she says. I explain it to her. Apparently, she thought that some random person walked into the help desk to eat lunch. She was coming out to inform me that I was NOT supposed to be there and that I needed to leave. By far the best reaction I have received. :-D
As for what the future holds, who knows? I need to get my hair out to Locks of Love still. I'm thinking I might grow my beard back, but not until I get a response from all those people I know. I still haven't seen a few of them. God bless. I'm outta here.
--Simon Peter
Friday, November 03, 2006
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
One of those days...
Ever had one of those days where the world just seems to be working against you? Today is that day, for me.
1) Started off with only getting about 4 hours of sleep. This is my fault, and I enjoyed staying up, but not a good way to start the day.
2) Even though I was staying up, I didn't manage to get my paper done that is due today. Again, my fault, but more than a little frusterating.
3) I tried making espresso at home only to realize that my beans were way to old. It tasted like shit.
4) I was late for my appointment to register for classes this morning. Look to 1), 2) and 3) for reasons.
5) Found out during class registration/senior audit that Spring Arbor did NOT wait until second semester grades were out before sending my transcript. I have an entire semester + J-term missing in my records.
6) Was not able to confirm that I will be being able to graduate. Instead, I now have to get in contact with the head of both the Math and Chemistry departments, as well as contact Spring Arbor and tell them to get their asses in gear and send a transcript with ALL my grades on it so I can graduate.
7) Went to buy espresso at the on campus coffee shot since my espresso at home tasted lie shit. Their espresso machine was broken. I had to settle for a coffee. If I wanted coffee, I would have made it myself. I wanted espresso.
8) I have an essay question to answer at noon. I was going to review a bit of that before my class, but forgot my book back at my apartment.
9) A while ago our ISP (more problems there that I won't get into right now) changed our IP adress. I had had the old one memorized so I could VNC back to my desktop whenever I needed to. I wrote down the new IP on a piece of paper this morning, only to forget it as well at the apartment as I rushed out the door to try to not be later than I already was to my appointment.
If I thought about it, I could probably come up with more. Those are the major issues off the top of my head though. It's not even 11 yet. I am not looking forward to this day.
A few good notes, however:
1) I realized that I don't need my government course. I wouldn't mind if the professor didn't have such a retarded test weighting. However, he does. I dropped it this morning.
2) The coffee was on the house. This is the 3rd on the house coffee I've had in a week's time: 2 from $tar and 1 from the place here on campus.
PS. Starbucks now has a new name, $tar. When spoken, it is "chingtar", sort for "'cha-ching'tar", a sinanim for "'dollar-sign'tar", otherwise written as "$tar". Go forth and spread the slang.
--Simon Peter
1) Started off with only getting about 4 hours of sleep. This is my fault, and I enjoyed staying up, but not a good way to start the day.
2) Even though I was staying up, I didn't manage to get my paper done that is due today. Again, my fault, but more than a little frusterating.
3) I tried making espresso at home only to realize that my beans were way to old. It tasted like shit.
4) I was late for my appointment to register for classes this morning. Look to 1), 2) and 3) for reasons.
5) Found out during class registration/senior audit that Spring Arbor did NOT wait until second semester grades were out before sending my transcript. I have an entire semester + J-term missing in my records.
6) Was not able to confirm that I will be being able to graduate. Instead, I now have to get in contact with the head of both the Math and Chemistry departments, as well as contact Spring Arbor and tell them to get their asses in gear and send a transcript with ALL my grades on it so I can graduate.
7) Went to buy espresso at the on campus coffee shot since my espresso at home tasted lie shit. Their espresso machine was broken. I had to settle for a coffee. If I wanted coffee, I would have made it myself. I wanted espresso.
8) I have an essay question to answer at noon. I was going to review a bit of that before my class, but forgot my book back at my apartment.
9) A while ago our ISP (more problems there that I won't get into right now) changed our IP adress. I had had the old one memorized so I could VNC back to my desktop whenever I needed to. I wrote down the new IP on a piece of paper this morning, only to forget it as well at the apartment as I rushed out the door to try to not be later than I already was to my appointment.
If I thought about it, I could probably come up with more. Those are the major issues off the top of my head though. It's not even 11 yet. I am not looking forward to this day.
A few good notes, however:
1) I realized that I don't need my government course. I wouldn't mind if the professor didn't have such a retarded test weighting. However, he does. I dropped it this morning.
2) The coffee was on the house. This is the 3rd on the house coffee I've had in a week's time: 2 from $tar and 1 from the place here on campus.
PS. Starbucks now has a new name, $tar. When spoken, it is "chingtar", sort for "'cha-ching'tar", a sinanim for "'dollar-sign'tar", otherwise written as "$tar". Go forth and spread the slang.
--Simon Peter
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Between Life and the Lack there of...
I finally decided that maybe, just maybe, I'd try recording a few thoughts and sending them off into the wide world of the web in order to insure my future self to do something or another. Yeah, something noble like that.
Anyways, it's currently 10 PM on a Wednesday evening. Do you know where your kids are? Well, if you're my mom, you would probably not realize that your eldest son is at this very moment sitting at his computer and creating a blog entry. In the next few moments, he is going to go get his last Killians from the fridge, and drink it while writing his blog entry...brb
And I'm back. Anyways, this is the way my life has been going down. I've been living this semester off campus with a couple of guys in an apartment. It's not bad, living with Mark and Scott. They both have their good points and their bad points. Probably one of the hardest points though is that neither one of them are really Christian...ok, Mark claims to be, but he is truly the definition of a Sunday Christian (and he will be the first to admit that. I've heard him). Not to place the blame on them (it really is my own fault), but working up the motivation to go to church has not been easy...I think I've gone twice since the semester started. Not what I'd call a good track record. So, if you haven't guessed, my spiritual life is not really where it should be right now.
School's going about as well as school can be expected to go given the fact that I'm a horrible student who hates to do homework and always procrastinates until the very last minute on everything. I'm currently in some fun classes. Retaking Real Analysis because when I took it at SAU, it was only worth 2 credit hours (instead of the 3 here) and I don't really feel like I learned the material as well as I should have. Taking Quantum Mechanics, Scientific Computing II, General Bio (w00t freshman *sigh*), choir and American Government (which I just realized today that I really didn't have to take. That does not make me happy) and doing fairly well in all of them. I'm really not to worried about it.
What I'm worried about is the fact that I'm supposed to write a couple of fairly large research papers. Research papers are the bane of my existence. I despise writing papers to the very core of my being--along with a couple of other things like the Matrix reloaded. I really should get started on those but...once again, I'm a horrible student.
I've acquired a couple more computers over the summer and this semester so far. I now have 4 working P2s, 1 sorta working P1, 1 working AMD 900 Mhz, 1 not so working P2 and one not so working P1; along with enough spare parts to feed an army of silicon eating soldiers. Currently, 2 of my computers are being used by my family since their family machine broke and I supplied my brothers with a "gaming" computer. (It runs old games and a SNES emulator. That's about all.) I'm such a good son/brother.
Relationships...yeah, not so much. At least not in the romance category. Plenty of friends. I've actually got a fairly active social life this year. I play DnD (or variants) a couple of times a week and have been going out with a friend to the BWW downtown since before the begin of the semester. Also, I've been to a few parties. It's been pretty good socially this semester. Now, romance, that's where I've got nothing. Ah well. It'll most likely happen sometime. Until then, I just need to chill and let things be. Romance is really not something I really want to force...Although it probably wouldn't hurt for me to at least nudge it...*sigh*
On to better topics...I think I've more or less exhausted the basics of my life at the moment. I'm heading out. Gonna go pretend to do homework or something like that. Maybe write a letter I've been meaning to write for a couple of weeks now. I seem to be in the writing mood. Anyways, later anyone who may happen to stumble across this. Take care and God bless.
--Simon Peter
Anyways, it's currently 10 PM on a Wednesday evening. Do you know where your kids are? Well, if you're my mom, you would probably not realize that your eldest son is at this very moment sitting at his computer and creating a blog entry. In the next few moments, he is going to go get his last Killians from the fridge, and drink it while writing his blog entry...brb
And I'm back. Anyways, this is the way my life has been going down. I've been living this semester off campus with a couple of guys in an apartment. It's not bad, living with Mark and Scott. They both have their good points and their bad points. Probably one of the hardest points though is that neither one of them are really Christian...ok, Mark claims to be, but he is truly the definition of a Sunday Christian (and he will be the first to admit that. I've heard him). Not to place the blame on them (it really is my own fault), but working up the motivation to go to church has not been easy...I think I've gone twice since the semester started. Not what I'd call a good track record. So, if you haven't guessed, my spiritual life is not really where it should be right now.
School's going about as well as school can be expected to go given the fact that I'm a horrible student who hates to do homework and always procrastinates until the very last minute on everything. I'm currently in some fun classes. Retaking Real Analysis because when I took it at SAU, it was only worth 2 credit hours (instead of the 3 here) and I don't really feel like I learned the material as well as I should have. Taking Quantum Mechanics, Scientific Computing II, General Bio (w00t freshman *sigh*), choir and American Government (which I just realized today that I really didn't have to take. That does not make me happy) and doing fairly well in all of them. I'm really not to worried about it.
What I'm worried about is the fact that I'm supposed to write a couple of fairly large research papers. Research papers are the bane of my existence. I despise writing papers to the very core of my being--along with a couple of other things like the Matrix reloaded. I really should get started on those but...once again, I'm a horrible student.
I've acquired a couple more computers over the summer and this semester so far. I now have 4 working P2s, 1 sorta working P1, 1 working AMD 900 Mhz, 1 not so working P2 and one not so working P1; along with enough spare parts to feed an army of silicon eating soldiers. Currently, 2 of my computers are being used by my family since their family machine broke and I supplied my brothers with a "gaming" computer. (It runs old games and a SNES emulator. That's about all.) I'm such a good son/brother.
Relationships...yeah, not so much. At least not in the romance category. Plenty of friends. I've actually got a fairly active social life this year. I play DnD (or variants) a couple of times a week and have been going out with a friend to the BWW downtown since before the begin of the semester. Also, I've been to a few parties. It's been pretty good socially this semester. Now, romance, that's where I've got nothing. Ah well. It'll most likely happen sometime. Until then, I just need to chill and let things be. Romance is really not something I really want to force...Although it probably wouldn't hurt for me to at least nudge it...*sigh*
On to better topics...I think I've more or less exhausted the basics of my life at the moment. I'm heading out. Gonna go pretend to do homework or something like that. Maybe write a letter I've been meaning to write for a couple of weeks now. I seem to be in the writing mood. Anyways, later anyone who may happen to stumble across this. Take care and God bless.
--Simon Peter
Friday, July 07, 2006
LAN this weekend
Among other things I have going on right now, I have a LAN back home this weekend. I'm going to bring my friends Brad and Mark from down here at the University of Indianapolis with me. It should be quite interesting. It is going to be the first time I'll be mixing niche friends in quite a while.
Another reason the party should be interesting, I got 4 hours of sleep last night and not much more the night before. Yeah, I'm going to be living on caffeine. Why did I get so little sleep last night you may ask. Well, I'll tell you. I went out with a group of friends and saw the midnight showing of the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie. Didn't get back until after 3 and I had to be at 8 in the morning. I'm thinking I'm going to try to sneak in a nap before I leave. I'll leave work a bit earlier than I planned on and just rest for a bit before I get everything around to go home.
Speaking of things to get ready before going home, I think I'm finally going to get my oil changed before we head off. It's been WAY to long since I did that last and I really do want my car to last if at all possible. If my car died, I might cry.
Let's see, what else was a I going to talk about? I really can't remember, but I do remember that I had a whole list of things and now I can't think of any of it. *sigh* oh well. Anyways, I'm out. Blessings.
Another reason the party should be interesting, I got 4 hours of sleep last night and not much more the night before. Yeah, I'm going to be living on caffeine. Why did I get so little sleep last night you may ask. Well, I'll tell you. I went out with a group of friends and saw the midnight showing of the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie. Didn't get back until after 3 and I had to be at 8 in the morning. I'm thinking I'm going to try to sneak in a nap before I leave. I'll leave work a bit earlier than I planned on and just rest for a bit before I get everything around to go home.
Speaking of things to get ready before going home, I think I'm finally going to get my oil changed before we head off. It's been WAY to long since I did that last and I really do want my car to last if at all possible. If my car died, I might cry.
Let's see, what else was a I going to talk about? I really can't remember, but I do remember that I had a whole list of things and now I can't think of any of it. *sigh* oh well. Anyways, I'm out. Blessings.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Me? Social?
Stranger things have happened, but I can't think of any off the top of my head. I have actually been social lately. Speciacally, this weekend. I went out with a friend Thursday even and a few drinks, went out with a larger group last night (Friday, had a few more drinks), going over to another friends house tonight (Saturday, doubt there will be any drinking) and I'm going to a party Monday (definitely alcohol involved ;-D lol)! Not only that, I've actually had to TURN DOWN a few social events that I was invited to because I already had plans! Seriously, what the crap is up with this? I don't mind having things to do, but why is that now with nearly everyone gone for the summer from campus, I actually have a social life whereas during the semester (when there were actually people around) I didn't do jack? I must confess that I am slightly confused.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Yeah...about those updates
So the frequent updates that I say I'm gonna do everything I update this still aren't happening. Oh well. It's not like anyone ever reads this thing anyways. :-P
Anyways, here's a basic overview of what's going on and been happening in my life. It's gonna be quite short and all because there is no way that I could tell everything and get done and, well, I'm just lazy. First off, school's out. It's been out for a couple of weeks already. However, this does not mean that I'm back in Goshen. I'm staying on at the computer help desk over the summer here on campus. It's quite a nice deal, actually. They're paying for me to stay on campus and as of now I have an entire suite style room to myself. The ridiculous part is that they have about 6 people working for what could easily be a 3 person job. *Sigh* free money I guess, but it's really kind of sad that I just sit around for 8 hours a day and every once in a while actually get some work to do.
Lots of other stuff going on, but right now I'm really not feeling like writing. I'm doing this to satisfy that small part of me that says that I should at least write something every once in a while. lol. Hey, if anyone out there knows a grad school with a good Chemistry masters/PhD program, could you please let me know? I really need to start hunting for one.
PS. If I don't start updating this semiregurally, anyone who reads this has my expressed permission to beat me bloody the next time you see me.
Anyways, here's a basic overview of what's going on and been happening in my life. It's gonna be quite short and all because there is no way that I could tell everything and get done and, well, I'm just lazy. First off, school's out. It's been out for a couple of weeks already. However, this does not mean that I'm back in Goshen. I'm staying on at the computer help desk over the summer here on campus. It's quite a nice deal, actually. They're paying for me to stay on campus and as of now I have an entire suite style room to myself. The ridiculous part is that they have about 6 people working for what could easily be a 3 person job. *Sigh* free money I guess, but it's really kind of sad that I just sit around for 8 hours a day and every once in a while actually get some work to do.
Lots of other stuff going on, but right now I'm really not feeling like writing. I'm doing this to satisfy that small part of me that says that I should at least write something every once in a while. lol. Hey, if anyone out there knows a grad school with a good Chemistry masters/PhD program, could you please let me know? I really need to start hunting for one.
PS. If I don't start updating this semiregurally, anyone who reads this has my expressed permission to beat me bloody the next time you see me.
Monday, March 27, 2006
I miss Spring Arbo
Well, it's getting close to the end of my junior year and my first year at the Unversity of Indianapolis and I realize that I still miss Spring Arbor. Not that Uindy isn't a good school. There are some good people here and it's nice to actually be close to a city. However, socially and spiritually, they can't even begin to compare. Along with missing the social life in general, I miss the specific people as well. I got to talk to Crystal online for a while last night and started to feel really nastalgic.
I also miss Ormston. Not even so much living in Ormston, but just knowing that there exists a place like Ormston. The dorm were punk rockers, geeks and nerds all came together in one crazy place. Playing assassin, Porchfest and just the general craziness of it. I don't think that there's any place like that here. There's just no campus life it seems. Technically, I think that there's more campus wide events that go on here. I just don't feel connected to them at all. Perhaps it's just me, but there doesn't seem to be much community here. I miss Spring Arbor with it's community and I miss Ormston with its insanity.
I also miss the spiritual life. I know that it's not the job of the school to make sure that my spiritual life is doing well, and I know that you can begin to become stagnant and fall away at Spring Arbor as well. However, it is much easier to get yourself up to go to church in the morning when 90% of the rest of the campus does as well. It's a lot easier to know what church to bother going to when there are 30 other kids from school that go to the same church. Here, I feel like I don't have any clue what church to go to and since I don't know what church I want to go to or where I would fit in, it's near impossible to get myself up on a Sunday morning in order to go to a church.
Perhaps most of all is that I miss the specific people: Crystal, Josh (even though he's not going there anymore), Janet, Rachel, my B2 brethen, my O4 ontorage, yes, I even miss Karen. I miss playing poker with Eric and Wooster. I miss playing Halo 2 with Kevin and Nate and all those guys (there is no way you just make that shot!). I miss ultimate frisbee and late night runs to Steak and Shake. I miss all the friends that I got to know and love at Spring Arbor, and I never want to stop missing them.
I feel a bit better now. I'm going to get back to school here at Indianapolis and have a good time. Hopefully, I will get to the point where I really do feel comfortable down here. We shall see. I'll post again in hopefully the not to distant future. God bless.
I also miss Ormston. Not even so much living in Ormston, but just knowing that there exists a place like Ormston. The dorm were punk rockers, geeks and nerds all came together in one crazy place. Playing assassin, Porchfest and just the general craziness of it. I don't think that there's any place like that here. There's just no campus life it seems. Technically, I think that there's more campus wide events that go on here. I just don't feel connected to them at all. Perhaps it's just me, but there doesn't seem to be much community here. I miss Spring Arbor with it's community and I miss Ormston with its insanity.
I also miss the spiritual life. I know that it's not the job of the school to make sure that my spiritual life is doing well, and I know that you can begin to become stagnant and fall away at Spring Arbor as well. However, it is much easier to get yourself up to go to church in the morning when 90% of the rest of the campus does as well. It's a lot easier to know what church to bother going to when there are 30 other kids from school that go to the same church. Here, I feel like I don't have any clue what church to go to and since I don't know what church I want to go to or where I would fit in, it's near impossible to get myself up on a Sunday morning in order to go to a church.
Perhaps most of all is that I miss the specific people: Crystal, Josh (even though he's not going there anymore), Janet, Rachel, my B2 brethen, my O4 ontorage, yes, I even miss Karen. I miss playing poker with Eric and Wooster. I miss playing Halo 2 with Kevin and Nate and all those guys (there is no way you just make that shot!). I miss ultimate frisbee and late night runs to Steak and Shake. I miss all the friends that I got to know and love at Spring Arbor, and I never want to stop missing them.
I feel a bit better now. I'm going to get back to school here at Indianapolis and have a good time. Hopefully, I will get to the point where I really do feel comfortable down here. We shall see. I'll post again in hopefully the not to distant future. God bless.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
ACTS (Adoration Confession Thanksgiving Supplication)
Adoration:
Psalm 8
O Lord, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
abover the heavens.
From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.
When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful of him?
You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and honor.
You made him ruler over the works of your hands'
you put everything under his feet.
All flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,
the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.
O Lord, our Lord,
how majestic jis your name in all the earth.
God, you are, simply put, awesome. The Psalms do perhaps the best job at capturing this. Father, may I come to the point in my life where praises and adoration pour from my lips like the Psalmest because you are all this and more. Father, I love you. You are infinitely merciful even when I mess up.
Confession:
Father, I come before you now in one of the easiest parts of the prayer. It can be difficult to think of things to describe your glory and to thank you for, but it seems that I never run out of things to ask forgiveness for. Father, you know all and are willing to forgive if only we ask for forgiveness. Well, today I come before you asking for forgiveness. I have sinned. Lust is as much a matter of the heart as it is any action and I have been lusting a lot. Father, please, take my heart and wash it clean of all the filth that I have been putting into it.
As much as committing a sinful action is a sin, so is not doing what we know to be right. Father, I have been neglecting to do what I need to do. I have withheld the truth. I have neglected my devotions and the direct conciquence has been falling farther from you. I have not been a shining light, perhaps a small red ember, but nothing noticable. Help me to shine for you!
There is so much more I could put here. So much more I need to work on and so much more I have done wrong. Father, you know my heart and I pray that you would look in there and find my issues, and that you would teer them out.
Thanksgiving:
Father, you have done so much for me. You have provided me with a good alternative to living on campus next year and paying money out all parts of the body. You have provided me with a car that runs well and that I really do like. You have provided me with friends, a warm bed, food, life itself. Most importantly though, you hvae provided me with Salvation. You have formed a relationship with me, saving me from the person I need to be saved from the most, myself.
God, my father, you have provided me with a purpose in life. Through your word and prompting you have given been a guide through the rocky times of life, a companion in the good times, a disiplinary figure when I have am going in a direction that will surely end me in a worse situation than when I started. Father, you are my all in all. You shine through me where I am not strong enough. Father, may I become weaker, so that you may become stronger and, in doing so, I may become truly strong.
Supplication (requests):
Father, I could spend all day asking for things, but you know what goes on in the word and for me to pray for something that my heart is not truly in is pointless.
I would like to start off for myself. Father, I know I have been making a lot of mistakes as of late. I pray that you would help me to move away from them so that I might better be in tune with you. I pray that I may be in tune with you so that you might shine through me and that the people I interact with will catch a glipse of you and be drawn in. I don't mean street evangelism, door to door, although that is good. I am surrounded by many people who do not follow you though. Help me to show those people your love and to be a becon for you.
Father, I pray specifically for my friends that don't know you. That their hearts may be opened and that I might be able to share you with them. God, bring about a curiosity in their hearts, and a willingness in mine, that they may come to you.
I pray for Jen. I don't know exactly what she's going through, but I know that there is something. God, please help her through whatever it is she may be going through. She is such a cool girl.
All other requests I will sumit off the internet to you in the form of a letter. lol
Thank you for your infinite love and mercy. May your will come to pass and may I be so in tune with you that all of my prayers line up with your will.
Psalm 8
O Lord, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
abover the heavens.
From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.
When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
what is man that you are mindful of him?
You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and honor.
You made him ruler over the works of your hands'
you put everything under his feet.
All flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,
the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.
O Lord, our Lord,
how majestic jis your name in all the earth.
God, you are, simply put, awesome. The Psalms do perhaps the best job at capturing this. Father, may I come to the point in my life where praises and adoration pour from my lips like the Psalmest because you are all this and more. Father, I love you. You are infinitely merciful even when I mess up.
Confession:
Father, I come before you now in one of the easiest parts of the prayer. It can be difficult to think of things to describe your glory and to thank you for, but it seems that I never run out of things to ask forgiveness for. Father, you know all and are willing to forgive if only we ask for forgiveness. Well, today I come before you asking for forgiveness. I have sinned. Lust is as much a matter of the heart as it is any action and I have been lusting a lot. Father, please, take my heart and wash it clean of all the filth that I have been putting into it.
As much as committing a sinful action is a sin, so is not doing what we know to be right. Father, I have been neglecting to do what I need to do. I have withheld the truth. I have neglected my devotions and the direct conciquence has been falling farther from you. I have not been a shining light, perhaps a small red ember, but nothing noticable. Help me to shine for you!
There is so much more I could put here. So much more I need to work on and so much more I have done wrong. Father, you know my heart and I pray that you would look in there and find my issues, and that you would teer them out.
Thanksgiving:
Father, you have done so much for me. You have provided me with a good alternative to living on campus next year and paying money out all parts of the body. You have provided me with a car that runs well and that I really do like. You have provided me with friends, a warm bed, food, life itself. Most importantly though, you hvae provided me with Salvation. You have formed a relationship with me, saving me from the person I need to be saved from the most, myself.
God, my father, you have provided me with a purpose in life. Through your word and prompting you have given been a guide through the rocky times of life, a companion in the good times, a disiplinary figure when I have am going in a direction that will surely end me in a worse situation than when I started. Father, you are my all in all. You shine through me where I am not strong enough. Father, may I become weaker, so that you may become stronger and, in doing so, I may become truly strong.
Supplication (requests):
Father, I could spend all day asking for things, but you know what goes on in the word and for me to pray for something that my heart is not truly in is pointless.
I would like to start off for myself. Father, I know I have been making a lot of mistakes as of late. I pray that you would help me to move away from them so that I might better be in tune with you. I pray that I may be in tune with you so that you might shine through me and that the people I interact with will catch a glipse of you and be drawn in. I don't mean street evangelism, door to door, although that is good. I am surrounded by many people who do not follow you though. Help me to show those people your love and to be a becon for you.
Father, I pray specifically for my friends that don't know you. That their hearts may be opened and that I might be able to share you with them. God, bring about a curiosity in their hearts, and a willingness in mine, that they may come to you.
I pray for Jen. I don't know exactly what she's going through, but I know that there is something. God, please help her through whatever it is she may be going through. She is such a cool girl.
All other requests I will sumit off the internet to you in the form of a letter. lol
Thank you for your infinite love and mercy. May your will come to pass and may I be so in tune with you that all of my prayers line up with your will.
Friday, February 24, 2006
Howdy
Howdy people type persons. I'm back yet again for more blogging fun. OK, enough of the chitting of the chat and onward to whatever this is that I bother to call my life. Actually, I guess all I'm doing is the chatting of the chit. Anyways, today I'm coming to you from my Intro to C++ class. Let me tell you how exciting this place is...ummm....wait....it really isn't exciting at all. That's why I'm writing this instead of paying attention. OK, so I'm paying attention a bit but it is far from getting my undivided attention. I'm really in a rambling mood today.
Right now, life seems to be pretty insane. I know for a fact that there has not been a night this week that I have gotten over 7 hours of sleep and I don't think that there have been any (perhaps 1 or 2) nights that I have gotten more that 6 hours of sleep. Caffeine has been keeping me going this whole time. It's sad, but true. Then I have 3 tests next week so I'm thinking that it's really not gonna be slowing down. Oh, not to mention that I'm working at 8:30 on Saturday. No sleep for me! Such is life. I will live, unless I die. It is official now that Physical Chemistry is a sufficient pain in the butt. Not that I don't need to do the homework, because I know I do, but the fact that it takes me hours on end is quite annoying to me. Gah!!!
I don't really know what else to talk about right now because I'm pretty much zombie-like. I'm out of here. Peace and God bless.
Right now, life seems to be pretty insane. I know for a fact that there has not been a night this week that I have gotten over 7 hours of sleep and I don't think that there have been any (perhaps 1 or 2) nights that I have gotten more that 6 hours of sleep. Caffeine has been keeping me going this whole time. It's sad, but true. Then I have 3 tests next week so I'm thinking that it's really not gonna be slowing down. Oh, not to mention that I'm working at 8:30 on Saturday. No sleep for me! Such is life. I will live, unless I die. It is official now that Physical Chemistry is a sufficient pain in the butt. Not that I don't need to do the homework, because I know I do, but the fact that it takes me hours on end is quite annoying to me. Gah!!!
I don't really know what else to talk about right now because I'm pretty much zombie-like. I'm out of here. Peace and God bless.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Caffeine Fiend
First off, I'd like to preface this post with letting you all know that I'm a MORON. OK, now that that's out of the way, onto the post. Perhaps I'll even get to why I'm a moron (owwws and ahhhhs). I hope you all had a great SAD (Singles Awareness Day), and by you all I mean anyone who reads this blog, and by anyone who reads this blog I'm pretty much just referring to myself. I worked this SAD. After work I went and tried to do some of my caffeine extraction lab. This was a homebrew experiment where I was trying to extract caffeine from tea and coffee (get it, homeBREW. har har har). This is where I confirmed, once again, that I am indeed a moron.
Tea went fine. No problems extracting it from the aquesous layer into the organic layer and all that good stuff. Coffee, on the other hand, well, let's just say that I now know that there was good reason why I really couldn't find any experiments that extracted caffeine from coffee. I discovered (much to my dismay) that caffeine was not the only thing that I got in the organic layer when I tried to extract from coffee. It was really thick and looked nothing like what I got from the tea. Then it dawned on me: oils and fats. Coffee has lots of oils, I've known that for quite sometime from looking at the clear windows of bean dispensers and they're covered in oil. I'm such a moron. Oh well, at least the tea came along fine and at least the extraction process is quick and relatively painless.
OK, so maybe that wasn't the dumbest thing that I've ever done, but I definitely felt stupid after it was done. In other news, I got a care package yesterday from my church! I haven't gotten a care package since freaking freshman year! I have all sorts of junk foody snacks now to munch on when I know I shouldn't be munching. It's all gotta be a conseriacy to make me fat...ter.
Although the care package was good, it has not been the highlight package of my last couple of days. A new power cord for my laptop arrived on Monday. Hurray! My laptop is no longer an oversized paperweight (and there was much rejoicing...yay). Now I can do all sorts of things with a portable computer that a desktop just won't cut it for. Like, I can take my computer to work or, I can type a paper outside--if the weather was warm...and if knew how to get to this "outside" place.
OK, I need to be wrapping it up because I need to get a shower in before class. I'm sure you all wanted to know that so there it is. Before I head out though I have one last announcement. My brothers and mother are coming down to the Indy area this weekend, huzza! Alex has state vocal competition in 3 different groups and mom and Jonathan are coming down to watch him. I really hope that his performances are in the afternoon because I have to work in the morning *sigh*. After the performance, Jonathan's going to spend the night with me and it will be pretty cool to get to hang out with mi hermano. Then Sunday I'm going to meet my dad halfway in taking him home. It should be good fun.
Now I really am heading out. With any luck it won't be another 15 months before I bother updating this thing again. You all take care and God bless.
Tea went fine. No problems extracting it from the aquesous layer into the organic layer and all that good stuff. Coffee, on the other hand, well, let's just say that I now know that there was good reason why I really couldn't find any experiments that extracted caffeine from coffee. I discovered (much to my dismay) that caffeine was not the only thing that I got in the organic layer when I tried to extract from coffee. It was really thick and looked nothing like what I got from the tea. Then it dawned on me: oils and fats. Coffee has lots of oils, I've known that for quite sometime from looking at the clear windows of bean dispensers and they're covered in oil. I'm such a moron. Oh well, at least the tea came along fine and at least the extraction process is quick and relatively painless.
OK, so maybe that wasn't the dumbest thing that I've ever done, but I definitely felt stupid after it was done. In other news, I got a care package yesterday from my church! I haven't gotten a care package since freaking freshman year! I have all sorts of junk foody snacks now to munch on when I know I shouldn't be munching. It's all gotta be a conseriacy to make me fat...ter.
Although the care package was good, it has not been the highlight package of my last couple of days. A new power cord for my laptop arrived on Monday. Hurray! My laptop is no longer an oversized paperweight (and there was much rejoicing...yay). Now I can do all sorts of things with a portable computer that a desktop just won't cut it for. Like, I can take my computer to work or, I can type a paper outside--if the weather was warm...and if knew how to get to this "outside" place.
OK, I need to be wrapping it up because I need to get a shower in before class. I'm sure you all wanted to know that so there it is. Before I head out though I have one last announcement. My brothers and mother are coming down to the Indy area this weekend, huzza! Alex has state vocal competition in 3 different groups and mom and Jonathan are coming down to watch him. I really hope that his performances are in the afternoon because I have to work in the morning *sigh*. After the performance, Jonathan's going to spend the night with me and it will be pretty cool to get to hang out with mi hermano. Then Sunday I'm going to meet my dad halfway in taking him home. It should be good fun.
Now I really am heading out. With any luck it won't be another 15 months before I bother updating this thing again. You all take care and God bless.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Muahahaha, I'm so freaking lazy
First post in over a month. Oh yeah, I sure know how to keep this stuff updated! Anyways, I decided that instead of doing homework like I should, I would update this thing.
Here's a brief rundown on what's been happening in the time that I was gone. My laptop still isn't working but I ordered a cord for it yesterday so hopefully it won't be out of commission for to much longer. I'm also considering ordering a wireless router/wireless card combo for my laptop from newegg. 108 mbs speeds for both and with a $40 mail in rebate, only $45 total! Great deal, but I'm still hesitant because, well, I don't really have money at this moment. I started a job just a few days ago, but it pays monthly so I don't really wanna spend money that I don't have. But, man, that is a great deal and I really wanna purchase it.
Like I said, I just started a job yesterday. I'm working at the help desk. WooHoo! Meh, it's pretty easy work and, even though it is minimum wage, I'm getting 15 hours a week. I'm also working a couple of Saturdays this month at a extracurricular math thing for middle and high schooler's. That pays $50 a Saturday and it's just a few hours of work. Rock on!
Started a couple of video games. Played a couple of levels of Thief Deadly Shadows, finished up Final Fantasy X (I was really close to the end. Perhaps I'll bother to go try the super bosses sometime) and have now started Xenosaga. Xenosaga, interesting game. Different than a lot of other RPG's that I've played before not in the way the battle system is set up or in the controls or anything like that (although it is a bit different from the Final Fantasy series that I'm so accustomed to playing when it comes to RPGs). What makes Xenosaga so different from other RPGs that I've played is that it's SO focused on cut scenes. I know that RPGs are meant to have a story but this is almost taking it to far. I have logged over 4 hours of game time and out of those 4 hours have had control of a character for perhaps 3. That's an hour or more of cut scenes. Maybe it will have more game play time later on but right now I feel a little bogged down with 10 min of game play followed by 20 min of cut scene. It may seem like I am exaggerating, but I really an not. I sat through a 30 cut scene earlier! It was crazy! Anyways, enough ranting about Xenosaga. It seems like a good game so far but I would really love it if I could just have an opportunity to PLAY it. Oh well.
Well, I think that that's all I'm gonna put in here right now. I really do need to go get a lab proposal done. Blessings.
Here's a brief rundown on what's been happening in the time that I was gone. My laptop still isn't working but I ordered a cord for it yesterday so hopefully it won't be out of commission for to much longer. I'm also considering ordering a wireless router/wireless card combo for my laptop from newegg. 108 mbs speeds for both and with a $40 mail in rebate, only $45 total! Great deal, but I'm still hesitant because, well, I don't really have money at this moment. I started a job just a few days ago, but it pays monthly so I don't really wanna spend money that I don't have. But, man, that is a great deal and I really wanna purchase it.
Like I said, I just started a job yesterday. I'm working at the help desk. WooHoo! Meh, it's pretty easy work and, even though it is minimum wage, I'm getting 15 hours a week. I'm also working a couple of Saturdays this month at a extracurricular math thing for middle and high schooler's. That pays $50 a Saturday and it's just a few hours of work. Rock on!
Started a couple of video games. Played a couple of levels of Thief Deadly Shadows, finished up Final Fantasy X (I was really close to the end. Perhaps I'll bother to go try the super bosses sometime) and have now started Xenosaga. Xenosaga, interesting game. Different than a lot of other RPG's that I've played before not in the way the battle system is set up or in the controls or anything like that (although it is a bit different from the Final Fantasy series that I'm so accustomed to playing when it comes to RPGs). What makes Xenosaga so different from other RPGs that I've played is that it's SO focused on cut scenes. I know that RPGs are meant to have a story but this is almost taking it to far. I have logged over 4 hours of game time and out of those 4 hours have had control of a character for perhaps 3. That's an hour or more of cut scenes. Maybe it will have more game play time later on but right now I feel a little bogged down with 10 min of game play followed by 20 min of cut scene. It may seem like I am exaggerating, but I really an not. I sat through a 30 cut scene earlier! It was crazy! Anyways, enough ranting about Xenosaga. It seems like a good game so far but I would really love it if I could just have an opportunity to PLAY it. Oh well.
Well, I think that that's all I'm gonna put in here right now. I really do need to go get a lab proposal done. Blessings.
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