Of Dreams and Dedicated Servers

I have a lot to update on the last couple of days so it's time for me to get started.

Saturday night was a LAN party and it turned out quite well. There was a decent turnout, setup went pretty quickly, and there was a good selection of games--although we ended up playing SOF2 most of the time. We did play a bit of joint-ops though and that was fun. It was also really nice to have access to some high-speed internet for a change. (Thank you, David.) I managed to get a trial version of Windows XP Professional 64-bit edition downloaded and have installed it and I'm actually pleasantly surprised at how compatable it's been. My video card didn't give me any problems and it seems to be running 32-bit applications just peachy like. There isn't a driver for my Capture Card though and the modem doesn't seem to be recognized but I really would have been incredibly amazed if those had worked.

That was Saturday night until about 5 AM Sunday morning. Needless to say I didn't get up for church Sunday. I know, shame on me. Although I was woken up multiple times by people yelling down into the basement and me having to explain before I drifted back off to sleep. Sunday afternoon I took my brother up to camp and had a pretty good time, for the most part. I talked to a lot of people that I really haven't gotten to see all summer and was pleasantly surpised when I found that a group of SAU students was there to do counsoling/worship leading. What kinda put a damper on it was someone I saw there that I really wasn't prepared to see. It just so happened that Karen was there. I didn't talk to her but that makes me feel like a complete jackass and makes me realize that I really am much more bitter about things than I would really like to be.

That was then followed by Monday. Which happened to be my day off and a COMPLETE waste of a day. I was going to go up to Calvin to try to get things in order and find out if I wanted to go there or not. Well, I arrived an hour and a half late because of some things that made me quite upset so that I was swearing the first 20 minuites of my trip up there, even though I was going between 85-90 mph on the freeway the entire way. When I got there I was informed that the one person I really, really wanted to see was home sick that day and that they were unable to find a replacement to sit down with me. The major thing that I need to decide if I'm going to Calvin or not is that I need to know if I'm going to be able to make it out of there in 2 years and the person that could sit down with me and let me know was not in that day and so I spent four hours on the road for jack squat! Oh, I was very upset. I still haven't been able to get a hold of her so I still have no clue what's going on.

To top that off, Monday night was my night of dreams that I wish would come real by probably won't. Ever had those? Yah know, the dreams that make you realize how much the waking world sucks? Well, that was Monday for me. The lesser of the two was that I dreamed that I actually got a tan this summer instead of spending it all indoors and being whiter than I've been for quite sometime. The greater of the two was that I dreamed that Karen and I got over ignoring and avoiding each other and were able to be friends and talk to each other again. You have no clue how much I really wish that would happen, but unless Karen takes the initiative or unless I'm kicked hard in the...well, unless I can get over myself I really don't see that happening anytime soon. Wow, I feel like suck a jerk. No, that's really to light of a word for it but it will suffice because this is public. Anyways, I have once again been reminding myself multiple times a day just how much I hate romantic love and if it were a living being I would seriously consider doing it more than a little bodily harm.

OK, I think that brings everything pretty much up to date on all the really important things that have been happening as of late in my personal life. Well, I think I'm going to run. I'm reading through the Harry Potter series again so I can be completely up to date when I read the new one...and to give someone time to finish the new one so that I can borrow it from them to read. I'm so cheap. Blessings.

Coming together yet falling apart

So, I'm not sure where I'm going to school anymore and that's a problem. I started out being almost sure that I was going to go to Calvin, but then the University of Indianapolis popped up and I quickly got stuff around to go there and was almost certain I was going there (I even have a class schedule and everything) when Calvin comes and offers me another $1,500. I had almost forgotten about them.

Now that I'm thinking, though, I find that Calvin probably would be a better choice. The main reasons I was thinking U of I was that 1) The had a Physical Chemistry concentration and 2) They are in state so possibly getting more money. Well, actually going down there I realized that they're concentration was little more than a glorified chemistry major with a physics minor and that the actual chemistry program was not as good as I had suspected. Also, I am getting no discount on going in-state so that kinda shoots that down as well.

Really, the only things that U of I has going for it right now is that my sister will be down there (making holidays and what not quite easy) and the fact that I already have everything in order. In every other respect I am seeing Calvin as being the better choice. They may be a grand or 2 more but, they have a better chemistry department, they are closer to home and they are closer to SAU so if I desire I may visit my only friends relatively easily.

If everyone could keep me in there prayers that I can make a decision swiftly and accurately and just get this thing taken care of that would be very much appreciated. Thank you all so much and God bless.

Computer: check, life: still blank

Here's the deal, I have my computer finally put together but I still have pretty much no life. Oh, I take that back, I had to send back my screen because it was displaying fuzzy text in certian portions of the screen. I still have no life though.

OK, I take that back as well. I'm going to a wedding reception tomorrow so I guess that might count as a bit of a life. I really need to prepare for Bible Study coming up Tuesday. I'm supposed to be leading and while I have read Romans 2 before, I haven't really read it through like I know that I need to recently and...yeah. I guess that's the way it goes. I WILL prepare though, I have to.

Well, that's pretty much my life as of this moment. Really not a whole lot going on but I thought I'd give a quick update. Later and God bless.