Don't you hate it when you get a post with a happy name like bubbles and then it turns out to be about not happy stuff? If you don't, then this post is so for you. First off, I would like to say that I do love bubbles. I love to watch them and think they are incredible. However, there is something melancholy about bubbles as well. Every bubble I have ever blown has popped after nothing but a few seconds. No matter how many I blow, no matter if they're big or if they're small, they always pop.
Sometimes I feel like all I'm doing in life is continually blowing bubbles. It seems that no matter what I do, no matter how big or how small, no matter if I put lots of time and energy into blowing the bubble or not, it pops after merely a short while. Everything in my life seems temporal, nothing permanent. This is good is many ways, but at the same time is extremely depressing--especially with relationships. What does it matter how much time I put into relationships or whether I have friends or not when I'm just going to leave them after a year or two. My list of childhood friends that I still know is nonexistent. I have a total of 1 friend who I still stay in contact with somewhat from my middle school days. I have a few people from high school, but we're in different worlds now that we're all at different colleges. Worst of all, I know the same thing's going to happen when I leave Spring Arbor as well. I'm going to go and all the relationships that I made here are going to wither and fade and I hate that so much.
Not only am I losing school friends, but I don't have the comfort and support of camp this summer. This is going to be my first summer away from Bair Lake in about the past decade. My friends from Bair Lake are the people who I can say that I have really known the longest and I'm not going to have that. *pop* That one took a while, but it finally happened. The longest lasting bubble thus far in my life has popped.
This is just a bubble popping fest in my life right now I guess. I have a really big bubble pop earlier this semester, I'm having my school bubble pop, I'm having my camp bubble pop. Anyone else care to do some popping for me? It's open season on my life.
OK, now after my sympathy rant I will recognize that God is good. The creator of all is on my side and he will not ever pop on me. He is my guide and my strength. Without God's power I would be very, very depressed.
I don't propose that we preserve
All the world inside a fragile ball of glass
'Cause I'm the first to throw the curve
Bringin' all that perfect ball down in a crash
Oh, it's that feelin' comin' back again
Turnin' earth around and pounding sirens in my head
Well there's only one cure that I know for sure
And it goes on and on
It goes on and on
Chorus:
And when it all is said and done
Until the end
Yes, You're the only one
And when the world is in reverse
You're the Saviour of my universe
I don't suppose I'm prone to trouble
Though I always do the very best I can
My universe a leaky bubble
Pinned by a friend
And then only did it expand
Oh, it's that feelin' comin' back again
Turnin' earth around
And pounding sirens in my head
Well there's only one cure
That I know for sure
And it goes on and on
It goes on and on
--All Star United, Savior of my Universe
1 comment:
Peter, I do not know you that well, but you seem like a really nice and funny guy. I really hope that you do not let life get you down. I too, have been going through similar things, my bubbles popping here and there any everywhere. I just want to tell you that you are not alone =) have a good night.
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